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5/09/2003

I plod down the street, scanning the dark alleyways with my eyes, making sure it's safe before turning and walking down the small flight of steps into The Gutter, home away from home. As always, a thick cloud of smoke hangs in the air; the smell of tobacco, pot, coffee, and liquor permeate the room, and the regulars glance up with a glint of recognitionin their eyes as I take my usual table. An obscure Canadian band is playing on the stereo: "And it's so hard/Khaili mushkileh/It's standing so hard again..." Terry, the barkeep, comes by with a tray and puts a cafe au lait and a black russian in front of me before moving on. A good two hours (and three drinks) later, I put a twenty on the table and drag my lazy carcass to the door. Outside, I take a few deep breaths as it starts to rain. Resigned, I start to trudge to my loft, getting soaked through. When I arrive, the door is open. Cautiously, I look in, and see a young woman, who looks about as disheveled as I feel. Startled, she looks up and holds holds up a soggy cigarette with a shaking hand. "Got a light?" Too shocked to do anything else, I pull out my zippo, and, rolling it against my palm, ignite it and hold it out. She tries a few times to get the flame to keep, but it's no use, and she shakes her head and sweeps out the door before I can react. As I stand, dumbfounded, the last strains of the song run through my head: "No no Raja/Don't you go back to her/No no Raja/Don't you" And I wonder. Wonder whether she'll ever show up again, what she was doing at my place, and why the hell she brought that song to mind. I wonder.
posted by Josiah  # 5/09/2003 07:55:00 PM

5/07/2003

Some days I gotta wonder why life deals such crappy hands. Why I have to stumble through this twisted impromptu performance, jumping through hoops and all that jazz just to keep my head above water. Skip it, maybe I can swim better under the surface. And if not, hell, at least I'd go out trying. Wake up. Stop trying to come up with obscure metaphors and face it directly. Yes, there are a ton of downers, but there's a lot to be around for too. Dependable friends that depend on you, the smell of fresh rain on pavement, hearing your favorite song on the radio. Is it worth losing all theose things just because you got dumped or your parents are grounding you? Didn't think so. [As a point of clarification on behalf of my parents, I am not being grounded, and never have been, it was just a hypothetical frustrating situation for the piece in question.]
posted by Josiah  # 5/07/2003 10:36:00 PM

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